everyone experiences it sometime or another. some more frequent than others and some more intense than others, but whats the root of it all and why do we as humans have this emotion?
in front of me, i see something i want. but its not like some jacket that i can go buy at a store. no. this is something more valuable. but still. they have it. why cant i have it?
jealousy to be honest is one of many sins i struggle with the most. normally when im jealous i wont be as energetic nor will i talk to as many people. I tend to drift away from groups and just spend some time on my own no matter who im with.
i honestly can get pretty mad at the world when im jealous but still.. what does the bible have to say about jealousy? its hard to turn to the bible when were down and pissed off but still ya gotta go to it haha
so heres a verse that i found that i like to go to a lot:
"Now the works of the flesh are evident: sexual immorality, impurity, sensuality, idolatry, sorcery, enmity, strife, jealousy, fits of anger, rivalries, dissensions, divisions, envy, drunkenness, orgies, and things like these. I warn you, as I warned you before, that those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of God." - Galatians 5: 19-21
well heck jealousy is right smack in the middle… and its obviously a SIN.
i know its a sin and i know i should try and keep my heart and thoughts pure but why is it so hard to do so? is it my lack of faith? is it my lack of trust? is it my own stupidity and worldly desires? what is it?? i wanna know! cause honestly wallowing in jealousy isnt exactly what i call a fun day in the park.
i dont even know what im saying anymore haha but anyways! to end this on a more encouraging note for some people who actually take the time to read this… i guess: Gods got your best intentions in His mind. Let HIM take control. take what He gives you and move on with it. ya i know it sucks when we dont get what we want but what authority do we have to say to God “i dont like this or that give me something better” mannnn if i had a perfect plan all laid out for my child and he said to me he wants to go down a different path - one that could potentially lead to destruction- id be all like “oh no you didnt!” and slap him across the face!
…good thing im not God.. and that He doesnt do that.. hahaha but seriously He’s gotcho back. so trust Him. take what He gives you. just make sure that whatever you get, its from God.